바보 and I went to pierre’s birthday party with gucci plus my friend from work, her husband, daughter and their 2 dogs. The party was soso since there was no music or decent beer, but there were so many dogs! I went to Japantown this morning with gucci since my student couldn’t come today and bought pierre a bday cake before picking up 바보 who was still sleeping by the time I got to his place….wtf? 2 of my aunts who I don’t like were there too and they kept telling me how skinny I got they didn’t recognize me. One of them said they wanted to have lunch with me..uh no. 바보 and I left around 4:30ish and watched robots at my house. dunno what we’re gonna do now since we’re just hanging out at his place. Tried out churro ice cream at my sister’s house. It was good, but I don’t like the churro chunks.
Last cinco de mayo was our 2 year anniversary. Last year I didn’t want to celebrate it because there was no reason to celebrate if he was gonna keep hiding our relationship from other people, but we already left the house so i didn’t say anything. This year I didn’t care if we celebrated or not, but we ended up eating out at tobang. I somewhat regretted celebrating because I don’t find anything special about anniversaries for some reason. If we’re still together, then we’re still together. we got the small family special for 2 people, but that was more for 3-4 people so we had a lot of leftovers. He always gives me a hard time, but every time I look at him, I always forget that he annoys the fuck out of me. His friends have seen us argue and have seen us call each other “faggot”. They all nod their heads agreeing that it’s love between the two of us. i guess it is….I can’t imagine myself with someone else or anyone else with him. sometimes I feel like he can find someone much better than me because I tend to screw up sometimes. that’s something I can’t talk to him about because it just upsets me even more. I told him too that if he wants to leave, then he can. I’m not staying with him just to constantly get hurt emotionally and physically.